I didn't miss this feeling at all. The overwhelming need to burst into tears at any given second. The feeling of something missing and not ever being able to get that back.
You sit here wondering if there was anything more you could have done for that person, to still be here. But in reality there was nothing at all that could have possibly made that person stay on this earth any longer because it was there time to go.
Not that I understand why people have to pass but I do believe that God has a plan for us all and whether that be to live a long and happy life OR for us to just be on this earth long enough to bless people and give others some sort of happiness, I don't know.
I do not, and I never will, understand why you had to be taken but it's also not for me to understand. I just need to be thankful that while you were on this earth I had a chance to be blessed by you. I was given a friend, who may not be here anymore physically, but will always be a memory. A memory of happiness and joy for everyone and anyone that he was around. A memory of someone who was there for me when I needed him and when I didn't need him. A memory that will never be forgotten.
You were there for me during some of the roughest times of my life. You never judged or took sides. You just stood with me when I couldn't handle it at times. You made sure I still had fun in my life regardless of what was going on.
When I saw you in the hospital and you were laughing at me for crying... If you could only see me now. 😢
Death is never easy.. especially for someone like me who cries over EVERYTHING. But... there is some sense of peace knowing that you are at peace. I pray that you are happy and no longer in pain. I pray that you watch down on us all. I pray that you feel how loved you are.
Rest In Peace Christian Gedeon.